This is Katherine, bringing her own “heart and personality” to her mother’s blog to give y’all an update.
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It was a very long, very hard day at the hospital. It started at 10:30 in the morning, and didn’t end until after six. There was a lot of nausea and “heartburn in your mouth” (what does that mean??) and feeling over all plain poorly. There were nurses who were just a tad bit too grouchy for my taste.
And for my next trick, I will attempt to look at things from the bright side of life:
We’re done. We finished the last day of chemotherapy today. Radiation, chemo…it’s behind us. It’s a pretty good feeling. Mommy actually drank and held down chicken soup broth. She was talking to people. Her home health nurse said that it was amazing how much she could talk now. The nurses were all remarking on great her skin was looking, how much it had improved. We have a CT Scan at the end of the month to see our progress.
Oh – and I get to watch Burn Notice tonight. Besides the point.
I’m not going to lie – for me at least, the past few days have been exceptionally hard in almost every way. I have spent the last week just praying that this treatment wouldn’t get delayed again; I just need it – this part – to be done. And every step of the day before we actually got to the chemo part, I felt like I was fighting every force or being that was a possible hindrance to her getting her treatment. But I didn’t need to fight because there was someone fighting for me, for us. People involved in all different ways knew that God was fighting for us.
Most days it is very easy for me to maintain hope in this seemingly bleak situation, but every now and then, I lose hope. Prayer is needed for those days to come few and far in between. But know that tonight, I sleep very hopefully because, I feel, a pretty great battle was won today.
“Those He predestined, He also called; those He called, He also justified; those He justified, He also glorified. What then shall we say in response to this? If God is for us, then who can be against us?”
* “On Our Side” by Chris Tomlin was the song playing in the car the day I drove Mommy to her first chemotherapy appointment. Tonight I find that it is stuck in my head. God is on our side, we won’t be afraid. Though mountains may fall, and the sky may crumble, there ain’t nothing going to stand in our way…