the same old, same old
Apr
19th
2010
no real secret… I have been a bit discouraged lately. The last chemo seemed to have sucked any spunk left in Valerie Beth. Never failing me, nor forsaking me the Lord has sent encouragement from many directions.
I did this layout with the Beth’s Belief kit that Kate made and I wrote about last week. I received wonderful words of love from all the comments over at lily pad.
emails, blog posts, FB loving, blog comments, voicemails, little and large gifts, so much unlisted here but not missed… and Lorraine came to drop off our Mom’s Pantry order (she is going on Teen Mission to build in Uganda this summer) and we chatted briefly… she said to me… the same promises God gave in the Fall are still the same promises in the Spring, which made me think of the early and the latter rains. He gives us both to bring the harvest in. Lorraine went on to say that while my conditions might have changed, neither He nor His promises have changed.
Same old, same old… the same old sore mouth, nausea, yucky feed tube, fatigue… it is discouraging…. BUT the same old reliable God encourages.
My taste buds are not working, but I am dazzled by red sparkly drinks. So I fill a starbucks clear glass with lots of ice and some frizzante, and sip it, imagine what it tastes like, catch a waft of the fruitiness, and think about the days when by the promises of God, I will sip one, or perhaps guzzle one… enjoying it fully.
thank you all of you… for holding our arms up.
angie
I’m so glad to read this. . .and so glad that you did that layout. It’s beautiful!!! You never get too far out of my thoughts. . . and your name is constantly on my lips as I go before God.
He is the same. . .He never changes. And those promises? Yep, they’re still just as true today as ever.
I love, love, love you!
(Oh, and there’s an updated blog entry with PICTURES of your – my – our girl!)
Melly
Thank you for this post and I must go over to the LilyPad to leave “official digi-scrap” comments! I’ve been thinking of you so much and coming to check over here every day to see if you’ve posted.
Love you Bethy. Have a couple of things to post on my blog – pictures from Declan’s parties, a picture of me with my friend Dana’s little baby girl Julia (finally) and I sent a little note to you today via snail mail.
XOXO
Peggy
The hymn “great is thy faithfulness” is going through my head, God is faithful; I hope you have a good night, I know you are tired, but so brave! Love for a good night’s rest!
Melinda
I read this today and thought of you and this blog post. Love you.
I will lift up my eyes to the hills—
From whence comes my help?
My help comes from the LORD,
Who made heaven and earth.
He will not allow your foot to be moved;
He who keeps you will not slumber.
Behold, He who keeps Israel
Shall neither slumber nor sleep.
The LORD is your keeper;
The LORD is your shade at your right hand.
The sun shall not strike you by day,
Nor the moon by night.
The LORD shall preserve you from all evil;
He shall preserve your soul.
The LORD shall preserve your going out and your coming in
From this time forth, and even forevermore.
Psalm 121
Tammy Amodeo
Beth,
So sorry that you are going through this. Words seem so inadequate. Hope today is a better day and that soon this will all be behind you… and that you will be able to guzzle or sip or eat anything your heart desires and taste and enjoy it to the fullest.
the non blood favoUrite
Beth, I never told you how much I loved this layout. I really do. Funny how life can change in an instant. Let me know if you need any legs held up too, love you.
Becky
Valerie, it’s so encouraging to us to get posts from you. I look everyday and, when I see a new one, I get so excited! You do amaze us so much, but I think all of us are always catapulted towards our Father when we read your “writings.” You see…you ARE writing and blessing!!