A THousand Points of Light
Mar
10th
2010
some of you might be too young to know the reference…. George Bush SR coined the phrase in an effort to promote volunteerism.
Last week was a hard week, a bit like the Garden of Gethsemane. I did lay down my will at the end.. whatever path God chooses is the path I am going on. Or perhaps more like the exchange between Peter and Jesus where Peter says I will go anywhere, do anything for you Lord. And the Lord said, "Simon, Simon! Indeed, Satan has asked for you, that he may sift you as wheat. But I have prayed for you, that your faith should not fail; and when you have returned to Me, strengthen your brethren."
I was sifted last week, and saw a few things I was ashamed to see about me and my faith did not fail. We may have a few more such times before it is over, but this morning I stand firm and immovable.
Something has changed within me
Something is not the same
I’m through with playing by the rules
Of someone else’s game
Too late for second-guessing
Too late to go back to sleep
It’s time to trust my instincts
Close my eyes: and leap
I listened to this song “Defying Gravity” (from the musical “Wicked” but I only know it from Glee,)over and over waiting for the surgical procedure to begin yesterday.
I had (and still do) an extreme amount of pain, The home health nurse said I was at the end of the spectrum of pain (following this procedure)he had not seen before. I woke in the middle of the night I guess after every bit of pain killer had worn off… the pain was excruciating. I had Hannah go get my mom (this is about 2:30 AM) MY mom came right downstairs, not a hesitation, she was just here by my side. She helped me fish out the Rx I needed, she got me a drink, she rearranged the tons of blankets I had on top of me; (I am getting violent episodes of the chills.) And then she sat by my side until I fell asleep.
Her positive attitude is worth a trillion medications. She doesnt waste time looking at limits, she just does what needs to be done. And she loves… if you think I am typing dispassionately, guess again… I am weeping. She loves me with hands and heart. I am surrounded by a thousand points of light.

events like drinking pop and jumping jacks, who can burp the best? Emily threw up… Amanda rocked~ bringing home several medals for family pride.


